Hello again Eliana,

I totally agree with doctors not spending enough time with patients.  That is kind of what I meant in that I found an integrated health provider that is a Nurse Practitioner rather than an MD because they can still do many of the same things as an MD but I find that nurses or those who were nurses tend to have better people skills.  She usually spends 30-45 minutes with me so far.

I hope that maybe some of the others’ suggestions here might bring you some healing.

Just know that you are not alone in your frustration with the medical field.

Hello again,

I hope your birthday had a bit of brightness 🙂

I wasn’t really meaning seeking out some sort of alternative treatment, so much as maybe trying to find yourself a physician that is willing to treat you as a whole person and consider things like diet, supplements (e.g. my provider told me to start taking vitamin d which seems to help with my mood), etc… in addition to/alongside prescriptions if you aren’t having any success with your current treatment. Unfortunately vitamins, pro-biotics, and other supplements aren’t generally covered by insurance if they decide you need them,  I know for me it helped just to know one is treated as a person instead of a machine to be fixed even though my provider still had me take a prescription medication as well.

And, animals are great.  I pray you can find a way to get to the sanctuary.

Hello Eliana,

First HAPPY BIRTHDAY, know that you are loved!

Recently I just got tired of doctors experimenting with medications, not-listening or wanting to work with me and decided to seek out an integrative health practitioner who is more willing to do so and to be open to other options like diet, mediation, or natural treatments in addition to traditional medications.  They also communicate and coordinate amongst other providers in their organization such as the psychiatric  provider and physician working together.  Perhaps you could look into this as well?  I feel a lot better now eating healthier, eliminating gluten that was causing my body to attack my thyroid, and just the fact that she actually listens and takes a bit more time rather than just telling me what to do has been a big help emotionally.

Also, like anita mentioned, I find that if you open up to people, especially those who work in compassionate jobs like the animal shelter, they might surprise you with their willingness to help, especially for someone else that has such a kind heart and desire to help animals and people.  Isn’t it worth a try?

May your day be full of blessings.

Edit: I don’t think God is punishing you.  It’s just life, there is both positive and negative and sometimes it feels like there is waaay more negative than positive, but we can find the positive if we look hard, even though it is very difficult in the pain. And those who go through difficult things are often some of the most loving and kind people in this world.