This validation refers to…being accepted I guess. Liked, adored, wanted. It is so shallow! But I am just naming and facing my demons.

“I feel like I have to do incredible things for others to notice, and only then I will feel happy with myself”: its again about others seeing what I do and accepting it. If I wont do something incredible, something different than others are doing, I wont feel happy. Even tho this happyness lasts only for short while.

But so far I havent been able to put the exact name on it. Perhaps I am anxious about things without fully realising I am.