Hello there, I know this is a very old post but I came across it and felt the need to reply. I feel the exact same way you do, the social anxiety, the ADHD, the feeling of utter despair at any job. I am currently a year and a half into unemployment by choice, after having quit my job at a company I had worked at for nearly ten years. I have learned to procure savings to keep me afloat during these episodes of impulsiveness. I am starting to apply for work but I can’t help but wonder if the feeling of being trapped will resurface again. Anyway, thank you for sharing your story, it helps to feel understood because I don’t know anybody else who is this way.