Thank you for all the advice! I really appreciate it! I have to decided to just take baby steps for now and meditate daily. Also, pray and eat! I’ve realized too that I’m am afraid of the future so I have tried to detach from worrying about the worst. Worrying has only taken me away from the present moment. We have spoken about everything to each other I was fully honest. He was honestly really happy for me when he heard that I wanted to start working on my life. He said he just wants to see me happy with whatever happens. So I am happy he is excited for me and he also is trying to stay calm when I do get upset.
Once again I really appreciate the advice it really helped me think straight!!
I am sure things will work out how they need to be :]