Nobody on my side. I feel helpless scared and hopeless. I feel there is no point but because I’m kept alive I am wondering why so I came here for solution.

About the Nature walk…. I assumed as my mom didn’t specify that people will befriend me and cheat me somehow. So I judgemental lyr speak to everyone. Also when people ask me for help I help but when I ask them for help they say no like my school friend I used to ask her for books when I was working she said she has them but won’t give them.

About the Nature walk my mom didn’t specify . She said you are stupid they are intelligent.

I had joined for yoga class I used to tell my mother who was there what I did what we spoke what I learned and then suddenly after 3 months I fell ill. Later my mom said don’t join for job don’t join any class. Now I’m afraid to join class. I don’t know whom to trust parents or others. Now when I say I’ll learn some hobby at home itself my parents say we can’t waste money on you. Once my mother asked loudly as in even neighbors can hear that loud are you jealous of me? I was taken aback. In my dreams also I didn’t think like this.

There is a nature walk in my city but my mother is saying you will get cheated don’t go. All my life she has warned me but indirectly made do wrong things. How do I trust people. Will most people cheat.

My tablets have been increased again. My mind is going blank. What do I do

Yes. Everytime it’s my fault. From 20 years I’m on medication. I used to ask my friends if something was wrong with me. Nobody said anything. What do you think my mom wants?

She used to put hot knife on my body. Throw food plates. I tried telling my friends but no help no support.

Why does she want to keep me alive then?