You feel like you’re in your own private hell with no way out. Forget all the platitudes .Knowing that time will heal and that the pain will diminish is all very well if you are starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel but next to useless when you’re stuck in this eternal misery. You must speak to a therapist. Exorcising your feelings in front of a trained professional is the only way to get thorough this .Please speak to your GP and insist that he refers you “Communicare” or a private therapist practicing on the NHS .I am currently going through my own dark night if the soul and I have seen a councillor on and off for the six months or so. Don’t try and do this alone. Help is out there you just have to love yourself enough to ask.