Initially, Anita that is so accurate I don’t know what to say about it. Also I am not sure I figured out how the reply system work, so I hope you get notified by that. I have to work on the problems you’ve clearly mentioned, I have to learn to value myself.

Dear Inky, Actually I am a person who has many hobbies, interests in life. I am simply a jack of all trades, master of none. Maybe in this regard, I can try to be master in one subject and distract myself. But that doesn’t end there, I have been distracting myself from this problem my whole life. I have to be in a place where even when I have nothing to do, I can feel content by myself. That is the problem. Then again, thank you for your suggestion.

Dear Peggy,

Firstly I feel that I have already forgiven my parents about this issue, I have never felt any resentment towards them. I can understand where these behaviours are coming from and even though they created a problem, I know their intentions. Maybe the problem I can’t solve is the fact that I can’t be open with them about this. I have never shown them the hurt version of me, they think that I’m a healthy, strong person. And I have no intention of doing that either, I don’t want to give them another subject to be sorry about, I want to solve my problem on my own or with other people. (Especially I have a tendency to try to solve it with a partner..)

Thank you all for your support and answer…