I do feel the same and I seek for help. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have a boyfriend of 6 years, who adores me and respects me. He is the guy that I want to be with. However, last year I started to develop a feeling of confusion. I had a dilemma whether I still loved him.

I suffered for several months, we took many breaks(initiated by me)  but none of them was of any change because I could not manage to stay longer than a week without him. By January, he was fed up with this rollercoaster relationship, when he could not predict whether I loved him or not and he initiated a break up. But he also found someone, with whom he did not get physical, just emotional relationship, where, as he tells me, he felt valued, appreciated and worthy after my so many rejections. When I realized that I was losing him, I was devastated, I cried and felt unspoken pain. I realized that I was losing him and that I loved him very much. After I expressed my love for him, he got back his love for me as well. So we got back together. I used to get jealous of that girl, but she explained 1000 times that it meant nothing for him and I kinda understand that he filled what was missing from me.

Everything was perfect, before I started to have the same thoughts and feelings that I don’t love him. I sometimes don’t want to be around him, I get this feeling when we are not together, but when we meet, things are different. I am feeling okay, but not the way I felt before my confusion started. Sometimes I have little crushes on complete strangers. I think of the things what I would do without him(travel, see the world, gave many friends). I perceive that by staying with him, I am losing my freedom and I want to be alone and have a crazy single life. Please help, I don’t want to lose him, but don’t want to sacrifice myself either. I don’t even know if the desire for being alone is real in me. After beeing single for  a while, I am sure I will start looking for a man just like he is. Maybe there is a deeper problem? deep down I know I still love him, but how can I get back my feelings of in love?

i am reading anita’s replies, she has a very comprehensive approach to every person. I am so hopeful that she will find this comment.
thank you in advance