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February 11, 2021 at 9:34 am #374484
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Participantdear anita,
your post means a lot to me.
You really have no idea how much that means to me.
i am a catholic and started to live like a true catholic.
also, i found an amazing guy’s blog in which he addresses this issues, that really helped me a lot
https://bobswriting.com/psych/abusers.html
I am going to do a lot of social service. i going to volunteer prison visits because only in the grace of god I am sitting at my home with my amazing parents and not at jail.
also I some how was able to forgive myself by telling myself i was a child then and since there was no harm or force or any predatory behaviour involved, i was somehow able to think that as a normal experimentation.
also anita there were not some persons like you existed, i really have no idea what would’ve happened.
also i am started to take anti depressent before a day ago and going to continue until around for 15 days as recommended by my psychiatrist.
i understand that what i did was not right but now i consider this oppurtunity as something given to me by god to have a good life and reach path of heaven . i never justify my acts as correct but i really thank god because i did that when i was a child myself and the guilt i had after that made me realized how much good , moral man i am and how much protective and loving husband and dad i am going to be.
i am now pretty sure that i will never ever do anything to anyone as i know how does commiting a crime feel like and thankgod i was not mature back then and i could say that to myself to explain my behaviour.
i belive in god and i hope he will help me to lead a better life.
i don’t know if i would ever come here to post anything or say anything but if anyone reading this done something like this , understand your intention was not to do harm or do anything bad as a person is said to be rapist because he know what he is doing and he is doing harm to the society, to the victim . those persons are disgrace to the world. whereas we did that something that we don’t know it is going to be such a crime and we just were curious. again cocsa is not legal and i am not promoting any illegal activities but what i am trying to say is there is still hope.
once i was planning to commit suicide and only then i realized how much good man i am and i started to consider this as a oppurtunity to be a good human and good catholic
and yeah as i said getting away from porn and masturbation is not going to be easy but with the grace of god i think i could do anything.
again anita i really can’t thank you enough for what you’re doing and again thankyou somuch for the time you take to do this.
also i can able to stop feeling guilty and shame about this by thinking how much good man i am now and i am going to be.
cheers to all of your future. god bless you all
sorry if my english is messed up as it is not my first language
i would love to hear your thought on this
thankyou all!
February 11, 2021 at 9:34 am #374485vincent
Participantdear anita,
your post means a lot to me.
You really have no idea how much that means to me.
i am a catholic and started to live like a true catholic.
also, i found an amazing guy’s blog in which he addresses this issues, that really helped me a lot
https://bobswriting.com/psych/abusers.html
I am going to do a lot of social service. i going to volunteer prison visits because only in the grace of god I am sitting at my home with my amazing parents and not at jail.
also I some how was able to forgive myself by telling myself i was a child then and since there was no harm or force or any predatory behaviour involved, i was somehow able to think that as a normal experimentation.
also anita there were not some persons like you existed, i really have no idea what would’ve happened.
also i am started to take anti depressent before a day ago and going to continue until around for 15 days as recommended by my psychiatrist.
i understand that what i did was not right but now i consider this oppurtunity as something given to me by god to have a good life and reach path of heaven . i never justify my acts as correct but i really thank god because i did that when i was a child myself and the guilt i had after that made me realized how much good , moral man i am and how much protective and loving husband and dad i am going to be.
i am now pretty sure that i will never ever do anything to anyone as i know how does commiting a crime feel like and thankgod i was not mature back then and i could say that to myself to explain my behaviour.
i belive in god and i hope he will help me to lead a better life.
i don’t know if i would ever come here to post anything or say anything but if anyone reading this done something like this , understand your intention was not to do harm or do anything bad as a person is said to be rapist because he know what he is doing and he is doing harm to the society, to the victim . those persons are disgrace to the world. whereas we did that something that we don’t know it is going to be such a crime and we just were curious. again cocsa is not legal and i am not promoting any illegal activities but what i am trying to say is there is still hope.
once i was planning to commit suicide and only then i realized how much good man i am and i started to consider this as a oppurtunity to be a good human and good catholic
and yeah as i said getting away from porn and masturbation is not going to be easy but with the grace of god i think i could do anything.
again anita i really can’t thank you enough for what you’re doing and again thankyou somuch for the time you take to do this.
also i can able to stop feeling guilty and shame about this by thinking how much good man i am now and i am going to be.
cheers to all of your future. god bless you all
sorry if my english is messed up as it is not my first language
i would love to hear your thought on this
thankyou all!
February 11, 2021 at 12:25 am #374476vincent
Participantalso anita, I would really appreciate if you could tell what make me different from any sexual predator or a phedophile
if there are any . thankyou
February 10, 2021 at 8:18 pm #374474vincent
Participanti watch porn when they are not around so they don’t know about its
February 10, 2021 at 8:17 pm #374473vincent
Participantdear anita,
first of all thankyou somuch for your time you are taking.
my parents don’t know weather i watch porn.
i watched porn until before 2 months. now i repent myself to god and stopped watching porn or masturbating.
again can you please tell me do i deserve forgiveness? thankyou for your time anita
February 10, 2021 at 7:07 am #374441vincent
Participantanita, i did that
please reply there
February 10, 2021 at 7:06 am #374440vincent
Participantanita, as you said i started a new thread without any graphic detail. please help me
thankyou
February 9, 2021 at 3:09 pm #374361vincent
Participantdear anita,
thankyou somuch for what you are doing. so i am going to share something that happened when I was 12 or 13 or 14
so i discovered about pornography when i was around 11 i guess. My story is somewhat similar to the guy david
i only came to know what sex and masturbation was around a month or two before this incident. still i had a lot of question about it.
so there was this neighbour girl who is 7 years younger than me. one day she came to my house wearing a frock and i noticed she was not wearing any kind of under garment. i was on a bed and she started to sit on me and do some drawing. when she did that i started to touch her private parts and then started to masturbate myself. There was no force or threat or coercion involved. i don’t remember any penetration. she didn’t even know that i did this to her. The next event occured next day. the next day i did the around the same thing.
actually i never even had the idea that it was wrong or a crime during that time.
but i had this thought of that my mom will schould me if she ever find outl
thats all i never did anything again like that.
now i am 18. i was around a month ago came to know about the term Phedophiles and when i learned more about them, I suddenly came to this thought
i could accept that it was my age and harmones and i made stupid mistakes. but something is making me compare myself with a child molester or a rapist. i feel I am the kind of person who don’t deserve to live
by any chance anita, if you ever sees this post please reply. also please tell me weather should create a new thread without the graphic details.
also by anychance if anyone who had similar experiance who successfully got recovered from this, please let me know how you did that.
I am pretty sure she don’t even know if this happened and also i am pretty sure that she is very happy and she often used to play with her. i never really got this thought. i have no attraction to children and i am blessd with a good parents and i am their only child . i often feel like i made them failed as a parents.
I hope i could live the life that i had before this thought come to me.
again please someone say if they ever able to get rid of the guilt
thankyou all!
have a great day!!!!
February 9, 2021 at 3:09 pm #374363vincent
ParticipantHello david, by anychance if you ever sees this post can you please tell me weather have you able to recover from the thought. i had somewhat similar encounter when i was 12 or 13 . i am 18 and now i want to kill myself. also anita i would really appreciate if you could help me
thankyou
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