Hi there!
It sounds like you went through a rough time and kind of fell into a big hole of sadness, that’s difficult to climb out. I’m glad you share this, because that’s nothing to be ashamed about!
People often seem to believe that everyone should always be happy. At all times. No matter what. But that’s not how life works.
The life of a human being is filled with all kinds of emotions and feelings. Happiness is indeed one of them, but so are sadness, pain or feeling lonely. It’s what sets us apart from other living beings and it’s what makes the journey of life so wonderful.
It’s the way we handle these feelings that determines our lives. So, try to embrace every single one of them. Don’t feel bad for feeling bad, that will only cause you more pain. If you accept that, at this time in your life, you’re just not feeling great, a great burden will fall of your shoulders. You’re only being human!
Seeing a psychologist can be a great way to just throw everything out every once in a while. Maybe you can try looking at it as just one human being talking to another human being. There’s no shame in that!
I’m glad to read that you’re still trying to be happy. Don’t give up on that, because, I promise you, it WILL get better. Don’t push yourself or try hurrying into feeling good again, it might take some time and that’s totally okay.
So cut yourself some slack and never ever forget: this too shall pass!