Hi there!
It sounds like you went through a rough time and kind of fell into a big hole of sadness, that’s difficult to climb out. I’m glad you share this, because that’s nothing to be ashamed about!
People often seem to believe that everyone should always be happy. At all times. No matter what. But that’s not how life works.
The life of a human being is filled with all kinds of emotions and feelings. Happiness is indeed one of them, but so are sadness, pain or feeling lonely. It’s what sets us apart from other living beings and it’s what makes the journey of life so wonderful.
It’s the way we handle these feelings that determines our lives. So, try to embrace every single one of them. Don’t feel bad for feeling bad, that will only cause you more pain. If you accept that, at this time in your life, you’re just not feeling great, a great burden will fall of your shoulders. You’re only being human!
Seeing a psychologist can be a great way to just throw everything out every once in a while. Maybe you can try looking at it as just one human being talking to another human being. There’s no shame in that!
I’m glad to read that you’re still trying to be happy. Don’t give up on that, because, I promise you, it WILL get better. Don’t push yourself or try hurrying into feeling good again, it might take some time and that’s totally okay.
So cut yourself some slack and never ever forget: this too shall pass!

Hello dear friends. I have found so many inspiring and motivational stories on this beautiful site, so I would like to share my story with you, story about my ex love, about betrayal and feeling stuck i na moment.
I’m 34 years old and I have been in a relationship for seven years, the relationship wasn’t very idyllic and functional as I’ve wanted and as it should be,but I was always hoping for better days to come, for my boyfriend to change his behavior and to start being responsible and to respect me. Unfortunately, I have come to a conclusion , a little too late, that such thing will never happen. He was extremely jealous, without any particular reason, it was really impossible if I wanted to go out with friend, i couldn’t have male friends,of course. I’ve always wanted him to have more trust in me, to believe in me and not to rely only on my salary. At that time, I was the one who usually paid in restaurants, I was buying him clothes, financing holydays we went on. When i stopped doing that, realizing that he is not trying to contribute at all, our relationship started to get worse. Two years ago, he cheated on me, while my mother was struggling with a serious health condition, so he wasn’t by my side at all, he was with another woman. I have found out about that in a couple months,so I left him definitely. Then, he was tryin to regain my trust, to bring me back to him, but as much as I ‘ve tried to feel love that I felt before,it was never the same. The betrayal story was always between us in the air. During that trial period, he was cheating on me few more times and suddenly he told me that he has finished with that, and he wants us to get married. I said I’ll have to think about that clearly and asked him to give me some time to do that. Suddenly, he posted on facebook a photos with another woman, he was posting songs about her every day, so I wrote to him that our story is over for good. He was sending me messages, songs, but he got no answer. He was trying to contact me at the street, but I didn’t even wanted to look at him,he did not deserve another second of my attention.
Yesterday he got married. And I sincerely don’t feel bad and abandoned,because the first time he cheated on me our story was over, but then I refused to admit that to myself. Now, I only feel a bit confused, what kind of a man can do such things, how many lies , fake faces and fake emotions can a person have? And the most important, how could I be so blind and naïve, how could I even think that a person can change. At this moment the only word that are crossing my mind are the wise words from maya Angelou : ‘When someone shows you who they are believe them; the first time.’
Sorry for writing such long story, but I think I have found a perfect site and forum with people who are full of understanding and have a similar experiences. I wish all the best to you all, sorry for my grammatically incorrect sentences,english is not my mother language,so..:) And i wish for all of you never to experience any of this events that have happened to me, because I literally felt a few times a pain in my heart.
Sincerely, Tijana