Hi,

My matt my happiness lies in marriage.. I am depressed have of the time bcoz its not getting fixed.. and so are my parents ..

I am the sole person responsible for that .. i know..

When ever we try to contact people for alliance they say they have heard about me before and are not interested in me… beccoz when ever anyone comes to see me i ask help lot of question and they get irritated and drop the propasls.. mine is a small community and most of the people are inter linked so when an alliance come they make a prior check about the girls character and get a bad feedback about me

yesterday my mother was not well because she heard bad about me.. she told me the reason of her ill health

Matt said that i should give authenticity to meditation that i do..thats what mind or me is not sincere to what i do, hence no consistency… He also mentioned that i should give hug to those i love…but i feel embrassed in doing so and more over i have never loved anyone…how will i know whether i love someone

Hi
katie thanks for the link.. i logged in..but i didnt find the story……if u can update with ttthe link of the story

with lov

I initially thought that my thread has become solong that i am unable to login..

Hi, TR

The thing i mentioned about forgetting is not related to meditation..but i am becoming forgetful day by day for the past three years from the time i merged myself into depression…
eventhough i know certain things or would like to practise..i slide back ..my mind is lazy…i wantedly get angry eventhough my mind knows i am gonna get angry…i dont know why i get satisfaction in getting angry and emotional and hurt

Hi,

Matt

why i get frustrated, anger and all of the top emotional…

whenever i do some work and if i shift my mind to some other work evenif for few seconds..i forget what i was doing 1 minute back…
and i always have felt heaviness from childhood ..by evening time my left hemisphere of the head starts paining as if beaten by hammer…

headaches are secondary… but i always have fear or dullness in accepting certain things.. for example : If my parents said that any proposal (guy) is coming to see me with hisfamily, my mood changes, gets dull, i become emotional and respond with anger and later feel guilty… when such topics come i get triggered rather thinking in positive way of giving a try…
and rather expecting that person to be as per ur set criteria….

i cannot complete the count in meditation, several thoughts comme, again i bring back the count..helpless

hi Matt

Whenever i try to exhale, my closed eyes start to roll and it pains severely

along with this the nerves at both of forehead also pains..

Sorry matt i know that i ask hell lot of question…i am been manufactured like this 🙂
Unless i clarify my questions, i find it difficult to move ahead..i want to be thorough with everything.. i want to give answer and solution to my questions..so that they dont back again with another bundle of questions

Good noon to all..

Jas the videos of BK Shivani is so simple to understand.. If we can remember her point and give a second thought then it would be of greater help, acc to me.

when i meditate, especially when i exhale the breathe,i feel pain in eyes and tightness at both the ends of forehead..does this happen to anyone else.

I always have heaviness in head even at normal times. But people say that they experience heaviness only during headache. Is this heaviness due to lack of meditation or peace

thanks for keeping the spirit up and boosting everyone over here..

Today during my work hours i visited a page wherein they mentioned about self journey therapy and bipolar disorder..

hence got confused whether i am having emotional problem or bipolar..?

when i went through the threads .. i realize that mine is the longest one with high number of replies in this forum…

When i go through other people’s blog, i realise that we all are connected in some or the other way, its just how we react or respond.

Its my humble request to lori, if she could mould all the case studies and replies into a journal, somewhere in the near future, which would be a guide to many … this would help people to think and stop getting their wounds deeper….