Mer mer i’m really sorry for your loss..i don’t think i’m the perfect person to give u an advice but i will share u my experience with you if that helps you i will be happy as i could help at least one person through my life experience…there were actually times during my old days that i wished my mom could really come and talk to me at least for a 10 mins a day and sat and ate dinner with me…the problem with me is i expect a lot from people ofcourse its my mom so i definitely will expect….i don’t remember when the last time she kissed me i will be turning 25 next month and still im longing for one kiss or just one kind word from her saying how are you…cant blame her too she was very young when dad left us and as a young lady she didn’t leave both of us and raised us both as good souls…she thought that i would understand things fast yes i do understand things but she failed to realize that i needed a mom’s love…..try talking to your son and understand from him what he really needs,analyse yourself that as a mother are you missing something i bet definitely u can be a good parent… 🙂 the moment u realized that u are favoring ur oldest the most u became a good parent i know u can do better and u will be one of the best parent.. i will be here if u would like to talk further….. talk to u soon

thank you katie for your kind words….trust me the only thing that made my day better was your reply to me….yes you are right there is always hope and the hope lies within me i know but…right now its fully dark inside me whenever i go deeper it gets even darker and i stop there…and i always had found happiness when people are around with me when they talk to me when i feel that yes they really do care about me they really love me,,i know its not fair to depend on others always but still sometimes i wish if i had someone with me right now i would feel much better i could at least stand straight on my problems… i look forward to talk to you have a good day ahead thanks once again

thank you lucia for your kindness and replying back to my post….i will definitely keep ur message and read them at my hard times..i’m really going through a tough time mentally i have written more briefly about it again it is really happy to know that their are actually good caring souls left in the universe just like you people as katie said above why would she leave her work and reply me back for what i wrote why would u care about my problem…im trying to keep up my hope…thanks lucia once again…