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  • in reply to: I almost allowed him to destroy me #146411
    Birdy
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    Dear Pamela

    I can clearly relate with everything you have just wrote about being in a relationship with a narcissist, I never really realised who he really was until he started mistreating me , they take more energy from you and give back no effort whatsoever except for criticism and judgement. I was with this person on and off for over a year and I constantly either kept on buying into everything he manipulated me into or I’d somehow feel so bad that I’d end up crawling back to him even though I did nothing wrong even being myself wasn’t enough I had to be the person he wanted me to be even though I not even once judged or criticized him about his character or personality which was pretty unfair , it’s usually a painful time after the break up and cutting all ties with the person but its definitely worth it, I hope you’ve started finding inner peace as well I sure it wasn’t easy going through the process of a divorce and starting a new chapter.

    But with so much history of emotional abuse is it ever wise or possible to still be “friends” with someone like a narcissist?

    I honestly don’t think so but I’d really someone else’s opinion  especially in my case since I’ve completely cut all ties with him

    he still reaches out to me for “friendship” I just don’t understand why

    in reply to: I almost allowed him to destroy me #146407
    Birdy
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    Dear Anita

    The person I’ve been referring to all along is Ex number 2 : The one I broke things off with in July 2016 “disrespectful one” he is the one I cut all ties with  – things in that situation also ended badly as well, I just mentioned the previous relationship with Ex number 1 (the one who threw all my things away at a social event) just to illustrate and elaborate on how vulnerable I was when I entered into the second relationship with (Ex number 2) and in which you were right when you mentioned “the anxiety of being alone” which is why I ended up jumping into another situation so quickly after I’d broken up with someone else at the time but in all honestly Anita being alone is not what truly scares me anymore because my previous relationship with (Ex number 2 ) taught me quite a lot about myself and how acquiring enough space and time to heal is vital. What scares me the most is the transitional process of change when someone else who is special pops up in my life again , I’d like to be in a healthy relationship one day having to have dealt with my emotions and insecurity during this time, just so that I wont sabotage something good in the future because I’m still dwelling in the past , there is nothing more difficult than forgiveness for this person(Ex number 2) especially with a person that has hurt me this much.

    in reply to: I almost allowed him to destroy me #146219
    Birdy
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    Dear Anita

    To answer your first question of if I no longer have any communication with him , the answer is “No” I also ended all social media communication with him as well.

    I needed time to myself and i still do but at the same time I had to officially move on too the situation between me and him ended after a huge blow up of an argument around towards the end of July of 2016 there hasn’t been any communication from my side since then , after our deal breaker of an argument he blocked my number and I wouldn’t of known of how he’s real reaction was like because he refused to see me during that course of the time even refused to see me on my birthday on the 11th of July tried to arrange to see him to talk in person many times but with no luck this all happened over the phone via text..

    the duration of when “the relationship” started was around September of 2014 on and off again until July of 2016 and the situationship is officially over

    though he tried to reach out to me in March this year via text , I avoided all communication with him

     

     

     

    I’m just still dealing with the after effects of it all I just don’t know why healing has taken this long and why I find it so hard to forgive him.

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