Right. I want a career I can feel good about. I do want to make a difference and, I’m interested in healing. Started practicing reiki.

This is still the same guy.

I think it is a good idea. I have met her once, she seemed like a nice girl, but I need her to understand that he is in a relationship with me now, I’m going to expect her to respect that. I know she has a boyfriend and I wonder if he feels the same as I do.

I do feel selfish for not wanting him to have anything to do with her, I think an ex should be left in the past, even if she is a childhood friend. Is that wrong of me?

I like his parents but, I would think his mom would be a little more conscientious about that subject. It all makes me think and feel that I just shouldn’t be there. “Well damn, since she’s the star around here and so perfect, why I am here”, is what goes through my head.

But I don’t say anything because I don’t want to cause problems, I still want them to like me. I don’t say anything to my boyfriend about having her contact in his phone to keep from causing a big fight. He doesn’t even talk to her anyway, so why keep it?

Even after all of this, I still feel like that bad guy because they grew up together, their mothers are best friend. Maybe I’m the one that needs to leave.

Thank you for replying. I am afraid of him getting back with her. Whenever I go to visit his parents, they talk about her a lot, “she’s going to school to be a nurse,” “she’s a good cook” it does make me feel like she is better than me.

I have been anxious about other things, but not like this.

I will admit to being a very anxious person and insecure. I often wonder if being in a relationship is good for me.