yeah well, I don’t even know what to say. Maybe you are right. I just hope I could feel better soon..

Thanks, anita, for the hard truth.. I really do appreciate that you took time to explain things with clarity. I very much needed that. Deep down, I guess I know it already but just needed someone to say it out to me that it is done.

I’m trying to keep completely out of touch but he tried contacting me today. I dint pick up so he sent me a voice note saying he likes me but he is too scared to go into another relationship. Plus even if we go ahead there will be a lot of issues coz of religion & parental pressure, that he is not ready to go through it. He said he had married once against his parents’ wishes, and cannot do it one more time. After all of this, let’s say, if it didn’t work out between us, he will lose me as well. Also said that he cannot hurt me & can’t afford to lose me.

I don’t understand why does he think this relationship will fail, even before it starts. Anyway, I’m trying to refrain myself from responding but this is very hard for me. I know there is nothing I could do here to make things work, I know there is no future, still, I keep hoping that we could be together. When I say that, even I know it is so stupid to think like that, but I just cannot help it.

He has always been there for me, has supported me in many ways when it was really needed. So I feel guilty in a way to cut contact. I don’t know why, but I keep feeling bad for him also. I just wish things would get better for both of us.