Thankyou Peggy. Its nice to hear such supportive words from others. I wish everything wasn’t as catastrophic as I feel it is. And I know it’s only my low self esteem chiming in when I find myself hoping he returns someday.

I was depressed because I guess my rocd (which has been present with every man I’ve been with) flared up due to entering into a new stage of the relationship. I always question everything where relationships are concerned. I ruminate to the point of illhealth