Thanks Kevin for your answer. I think so. Now I should try to speak with her seriously. maybe tomorrow.

Thanks Anita for your help, I think now I have a better view about the problem and what I should do. You right, even if I need something, I should pay it in a proper cost… maybe this in this way I’m going will create a worse situation for me about a relationship. I will go to speak with her clear. and then I will decide about being with her.

e.g. she tries to change my life style and change my main stuff which are important to me. for example she tries to make me dress in way that don’t fit to me. she tries to make me speaking as she want, watch stuff that she want and so on…
She tries to make me as a male that lives like other mens here in my town. reading books, reading articles, learning languages, watching animes and programming is so important to me and don’t like really body building! or try to speak like dinosaur to be a “man”. and I can’t find really a girl who like a man who is not like a typical man of my society…