i put my doggie to sleep today. I miss him so much. I know he was in pain and quality of life means more than quantity. But I am guilty of not telling him I loved him everyday. I love him, even now, more than words can express. I hope that even in his blindness, unsteadiness and old age that he knew that. I feel bad that he hung on for me.

Should I have done this sooner? should I of gotten up early everyday, because i truly regret the days I slept in and didn’t pay him any attention. I should have done so much more for my dog and don’t want to breath anymore. I am not the same person. Should I have taken him to the vet sooner and had him put on pills/meds? I miss him barking. I miss him following me around the apartment. I miss him.