Thank you guys for the responses. The main two things I have been going through are, me being gay with a homophobic family, and my parents are getting divorced. To be honest, I don’t really even feel anything from my parents getting divorced, and I mostly rely on myself for happiness, and other things. Me being gay is a big issue though. I’ve been out for about a year at school, and that was a big mistake. My brother goes to my school this year and he’s as homophobic as my parents. One of his friends told him that I asked out this one guy last year, so now I don’t know what to think. I honestly don’t care what happens anymore. My older brother shares the same views of me, so he’s sort of a “breather.” Also, mental issues have been an issue for me. It started out as health anxiety, and I feel like it has just made everything worse. I’ll slack off at school, but I still get good grades. By me slacking off, I mean being loud, annoying, and obnoxious in class. Most of it comes from me not feeling “connected.” I have memory issues, I overthink, I overreact. And I react to these by thinking that I have some brain issues like a brain tumor, or a defective brain. My anxiety has calmed down a little bit, but on the flip side, I have been careless, and sad. I feel so “out there” compared to everybody else. I have a good amount of friends that stick up for me and are there for me, but I just don’t feel like they need to do that. I feel like they feel obligated to hang out with me. I just want to move far away and start a new life, and I just want to leave everybody behind.

The house that my uncle was in was very small. The pool table was the only thing in decent shape there. When the killer walked in, he didn’t even acknowledge me, and my uncle didn’t acknowledge me the whole time. I also noticed that all the dead ends were ended by either houses or fences. And know looking back, I realize that I didn’t even ask anybody for help, it was just me trying to run away. And of course I could have gone over the fence or around the house, but I didn’t I just turned around and went the other way. Can you explain this?

Thank you guys so much! And just to clarify, I do feel dissociation in real life, but I’m not anxious about it, I’m just a little depressed about it, because I don’t have anxiety, and I don’t have any other health issues that I’m aware of.

Thanks and I don’t really know. I guess anything possible, but the dream was kind of unrealistic.