And the question that how I’ll react if she says…. I’ll immediately stop her from saying that…. I’ll talk to her before also not to say anything like that and if she says then that’ll impact our relationship which is already at this point.

Regarding this that my parents (my mother) will say things on his face no they’ll not. I am sure of that they’ll not do it. Sometimes all of this angers me to the point that I have my life I want to keep them happy and what they are doing to me.. I want to turn selfish and if someone wants to marry me someday after I am settled in career and I’ll marry in the court and not call any of them 😒…… Is this life all about.. compromises sacrifices?? And then living with rage?

1. If at a restaurant she’ll hesitate a little but then Eat….She has sometimes let people from other communities come to our house and eat although in different plates.Sometimes even have said that everyone is equal.This much of things she is saying only when it has come to me.I am single child and she is very possesive about me or I’ll say her world revolves around me.For parents it’s like it’s just a teenage thing she’ll forget him if she stops talking to him.In Hindi as they say “baaton mein aajana”.By any means separate her from him. She’ll find someone else fall in love again. But this thing will leave a scar on the heart no matter what.

I hope I have not made you feel frustrated with all this.. I apologise for that if so..

Thing is my parents come from a different time  and how they see things is how they have been taught by their older generations. I can try to change their heart but may not exceed. Sad part is this caste system is so much deep rooted in us that even my boyfriend believes that he is from that low caste…. I constantly try to tell him you are not but what else can I do. My mother has so much fear of relatives as well that they’ll laugh at us or they’ll die of shame in the society.Our generation is more or less doesn’t care about what others talk about us but the generation of our parents do. They are not aware about the psychological impact of doing this  or maybe they do not even belive something like this exists.

I wanted to be with this man  to prove to society as well that no one is made less or more by God which i truly believe.Him giving up on us for this bizarre reason is also one of the reason how caste system will go on for generations to come.We should let these walls break down.

Although he has said we have time I am not going anywhere I am not getting married before you as well  & that he’ll talk to his parents after October.He then says that when it comes to asking God I’ll pray it’s you and me in the end.

My parents are also trying to move out of this village and we’ll be living in some other place hopefully.

I am so grateful to have someone who is taking so much time and putting effort to write so much for me.Thank you Anita ma’am.I don’t know you but it feels like i have a corner where i can come and share without feeling guilty.Thanks a lot🌻

Hardest thing about all this is knowing you are not wrong Caste system is wrong, having the strength to fight with everyone for that person and trying to show your parents the right thing as well……. Still seeing that sometimes life is just trying to teach you patience, acceptance and letting go and many more things.

It feels he is doing it less for him and his family more for my parents and their respect. I have left it to God now maybe.I hope he gets the best and if it’s not him and I in the end  in God’s plan May both of us move on and live our life.It hurts to see him trying to suppress his emotions and pushing himself so much.He tries to be happy but I can see what war is going within him.I hope time heals him and me too. Or if I could I’ll ask God to give him courage to stand by me.

Thank you.

I know you must be busy with your life too ma’am.I will not mind even if you’ll take days to reply.Do so only when you feel like it.

Sending love and gratitude 💕

See legally things can be done….but i want to change my parents mind and accept him will full heart maybe half…cuz all he is thinking about is my parents.and someone who can even leave me for my parents…He is the one I want to be with cuz I feel no one in long term will be as right as him for my parents as well.at this point I have very little idea how I’ll do that…my mother says it’s impossible for her to accept..she can’t eat with him…and that whole of your family will be then from low caste ..your children…i want something else for you…he says leave this to destiny if it has to happen it’ll happen either ways..just focus on your career. My mother is soft at heart. Though she will be hurt for sometime. I really want to make it work.

About the suicide thing it was not that I’ll die..it was I can’t live like this.

I know I am being stubborn…but i want our parents and both of us happy.and i don’t want my parents to pay the price for it.Or least that they go through for it.Is it really this impossible thing for parents to say.My mother at this point has things like his daughter did intercaste marriage nd he died of grief.I have time to make her understand.please suggest.

I didn’t say about suicide and stuff to any of them…..I am home with my parents trying to be calm ..I didn’t text him as well.

Yes there was no practical plan to it.The heart wants what it wants.One more thought that troubles me is we know we had a good connection..he used to say he’ll never have that again with anyone …I even if it never happens can tell myself the other person didn’t have the courage to fight for it and he made peace with it.Will he always be at peace with this decision? Sometimes we realise things much later and then regret that things could have been different.I don’t know if he’s gonna be loved like that understood like that or what….scares me for myself too..and then seeing him with someone else will also be very hard for me.

So what the circumstances are these they can change…plan was not running away and getting married it was to wait and win over our parents hearts. Yus they said harsh things they don’t understand this but i know them….it would have been a tough fight but there was a big chance that in the end they would have agreed…..He says your parent’s respect in the society … Society .. people just talk about things for a month and move on with their life..parents will be angry for a year or two but then things will settle down and we’ll be together for a lifetime..which to me was worth it.I sometimes feel he will realise this at 32 and things will be very different then..i would have moved on and he’ll maybe live with this regret (only if he doesn’t find someone much better than me)