Hi Anita,

Thanks for reaching out.

I am ok, have been getting on with things and was in a good space but last week or so has been tough. Found myself being more negative which isn’t like me just with the news in the world etc bringing me down. Work has been political also which hasn’t helped. All of this coupled with a bit of ‘man flu’ has just impacted my mood. I keep powering on and looking for my purpose.

Hope you are ok.

Tom

Thanks Anita,

I needed to hear that, today has been a tough day with quite a few issues that have made me doubt myself even more. I am waiting at the airport now, will hopefully have a good sleep when home tonight and then do my best tomorrow and hope it goes well.

Hi Anita,

The trip is over and I am returning back to the UK (arriving Monday AM). I then go away again tuesday – thursday just in Europe this time ahead of a big work presentation on Friday in the UK to 100+ people. This is something i have never done on this scale before and i haven’t really had time to prepare due to the travel etc. If i felt prepared, I feel like I would feel ok about this but i’m anxious due to lack of prep. I will try and do what I can this week to get ready but will be tricky with the travel again.

I will likely write again in the build up and hope i will feel better come next week when a little bit of normality will return to my schedule.

Hi Anita,

Yes, I will try and explore a little. I arrived last night, guess what I don’t like is that the trips aren’t as organzied as I’m used to with a planned schedule etc. I have a few tasks to do here but not tons etc and it makes me miss home

Thanks Anita,

I head away with work next week to Singapore so anxious about that as a long way and different time zone to my partner back home. As always, I will do my best.

Hi Anita,

Hope you have had a good weekend. There is a HR department but that hasn’t really helped. There was a team away day etc. I don’t feel like anyone ever made an effort with me and perhaps I haven’t also. It’s a big team where people often travel so it makes it trickier to bond etc. There is also a lack of leadership and people get involved in work and tasks which they probably shouldn’t.

Trapped is how I feel because of the work situation. I don’t feel like I have ever settled in this role, made allies etc and I rarely feel myself when I’m there and get anxious about lots of things to do with the job.

I have a good salary in the role and a long notice which adds to the feeling of trapped as that makes it tricky to find another suitable role and form an exit plan in a timely manner. We have a mortgage and bills so I know I can’t just walk away and I guess that adds to the feeling.

I keep positive where I can and active and all of that stuff helps but deep down the feelings are still there.