Hi Anita,

Hope all is well.

Settled back in at work now and while it’s going ok, deep down I do believe it may not be for me long term. It is well paid though so I guess the issue I have is walking away from that. The UK is very expensive currently and it’s not straight forward to find another job instantly.

I am doing my journaling and gratitude every day and using the calm app and all of this is helping keep a good perspective on things.

Thank you Anita

Merry Christmas to you too.

I have a few days downtime before heading back to work.

Thank you Anita, yesterday was a challenging day at work with some issues coming up which were problematic and stressful. Some blame may come to me for them but it’s also the problem I have found since I started this role without any proper onboarding or process in place.

A few months ago I think I would have struggled to deal with yesterday but I was able to just stay calm and do what I think I was best. I finished work and got home to see my partner and niece for a few hours and today feel better about things as I am doing my best and that is all I can do. Will keep writing here as helps to express it.

Thanks Anita,

Yes, balance is key and I will do my best to maintain that.

I will keep up with the gratitude and continue to keep you posted on things.

Thanks

Still in the role and trying my best.

Left in tears yesterday though and when I got home to my partner. Mainly due to feeling like not fitting in there and been given tasks without enough context and background.

I am reading a lot of books such as Manifest and trying to think of a solid exit plan but yesterday for some reason it was just too much. Just writing it down to vent more than anything. Thanks

No probs Anita,

I appreciate you taking the time to reply always.

My parents not divorced, but live separately 50% of the time, this has only happened in the last 5-10 years since I’m an adult.

My childhood was good, I had a good bunch of friends and did ok at school/uni.

At home we were ok. My dad worked in London and had a stressful job. He and my Mum had a strained relationship and would often fight. As a child, I hated conflict and would often be worried of what/when the next fight would be. They would be sometimes become very heated, sometimes violent. I would try and appease the situation if I could. They had a lot of deeper issues, including a daughter who was given up for adoption that is never spoke about and I’ve never met.

I’ve always been naturally a quite quiet/shy person until I get to know someone and come out of my shell.

My situation is now that I’m engaged and very happy at home with my partner and dog.

We have a good life. As you know, I changed job a few months back and it’s not going well as I hoped. They haven’t told me it’s not going well but I don’t feel like I’m doing well. I am not enjoying it and have never been someone who changes job lots.

I feel stuck as I get paid well it’s not hard to find a new job but I also feel unfulfilled and don’t want to be like this.

Hello Anita, my parents were not disapproving. My mum and dad had a troubled relationship but never separated (officially).

I have never fully been able to express my fears and concerns with them. Only with my partner.