I feel so lost and he tells me if i want to go to my sisters wedding or do things that i want to do then im not being a real women and that im being a little girl that wants to go off and do things that single girls do when thats not the case at all, ive been a very good friend/ girlfriend to him but this is destroying me because i cant choose he has a way of making me feel like im a bad person if i want to do even the simplest things he said he trusts me and that he has forgiven me for the past but i dont think that is the case at all i feel lost all of the time,im not allowed friends, i cant even sleep in on a Saturday morning to give him peace of mind so what do i do? Do i tell him im going to.my sisters wedding and he can choose to accept it or not or do i just not go and just do nothing waiting around to live a life with him i no over time if i leave i will heal and eventually get over him but then i no it wont be easy or how long it will take but i also want to see what will become of this as it has been 4 years, i dont no if he is another lesson or another lofty mountain in my way of my dreams and to becomming the person i am destined to be ive been in a relationship before him for 7 years and i left the other guy because he cheated all the time but this guy is loyal ( so he says) do i just leave and if its ment to be he will be mine

I am in a relationship with him because i love him we he went i had no feelings for him but over time our connection grew and over time i fell in love with him i just hooe the man he says he is in there is the person he truly will be on the outside i feel like if i go home and give us a chance and if it doesn’t work out then i will have peace of mind by really knowing for myself but if i leave and i dont i will always regret it and think what if this or what if that im to soft and i care for him so much he means alot to me but im always confused and upset because this all hasnt been easy and he always says i have to prove myself because i cheated when we first meet