I still miss her badly. On top of that my little on keeps asking about my neighbors daughter. I hate this never ending saga. I have been thinking about friend since August.

That makes sense. My little one sometimes blames me that I put too many rules and I feel guilty about it. I have set a rule since  last year saying that she will not get screen time if she doesnt eat food. Its only during the weekdays. Sometimes she doesnt care about the consequences. Last week she did the same.

Thats what I keep telling my husband. She should learn how to spend her alone time. She cannot go the neighbors house everyday or every weekend. I dont know why my husband gives in so easily. He has the typical indian mentality when it comes to parenting. May be because she is an only child. He keeps telling me that kids get bored and they need/want kids to play all the time. we take her to library and she talks to kids over there. We had a great time on Friday as a family. We went to out to ice cream, then chuck-e cheese, then had pizza. But after all that she wasnt happy.  No matter how much we do nothing is good enough for her. My husband prepares her lunch everyday. He cooks what she likes. She hasn’t been eating lunch for the past one year. She is wasting food since one year that triggers me a lot. She skips eating that food is spicy or its not spicy. I dont know how I deal with her at this point. I feel so lost. She throws a fit because she doesnt like spicy food. I add hell lot of butter to her food. I taste it before giving it to her and its not all spicy. She says she  has very less spice tolerance. If she wants a toy she will keep us nagging for half day. She doesnt want to brush her hair every day because its tangled. Every task we do is mundane for us. I dont know what’s going on her little brain. She is cute though and fun to be with. I love her a alot.

She want to buys a to toy or key chain every week. My husband spoils her with all the toys.

I will look into the ODD stuff. I  did tell my husband while ago about taking my kid to a therapist. He brushed off saying that its normal for kids to act like this at this age.

Hey Anita.. How are you doing ? I am having a bad day today. Its the time of the month I guess. My little one is giving me a hard time now  a days. Its been happening since last year once she started kindergarten. She keeps throwing fit for every little thing. From waking up in the morning to the time she goes to bed. She wants control over everything she does. Now a days she  talks back and saying really mean things to us. Its hurting my mental health. Recently, I stopped talking to my neighbor as she is busy with her other set of friends/ group. She misses my neighbor kid. She wants to meet her everyday. Lets name her T. She did the same thing last year too. She always want to play with X everyday even after playing with kids at school. But X is also busy with her own friends. My kid keeps saying that she is alone and X as lot of friends .I put my ego aside, two weeks ago I asked my neighbor to send her kid to our house. She said yes and didnt send her. Later texted on saying that they slept. During the weekend, I wanted to arrange a play date and asked her again. She said she has plans with her group and she wants to go with them to the park as thier kids come along. It hurt me so much. I hate her now. I am trying to distance myslef from her. but my little one keeps reminding about T. I hate it. She has time to meet her group of friend very often like three four times in a week. But she doesnt have time for me now. I  am trying to move on but my kid always reminds me about her.

I am doing OK.

Lol..Sometimes I am stubborn just like my kid. Only forgiving her will give me the peace. Thats what I noticed in the last couple of weeks. I was at peace when I forgave her but I still dont like her. I have to let go off the expectations too.