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  • June 6, 2024 at 10:05 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433557
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    I would say 5hrs.

    June 6, 2024 at 9:47 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433555
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    Yeah.I am working remote from India during the PST timings.

    June 6, 2024 at 9:31 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433552
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    Thanks for the insight Anita. I am trying to let go off the judgements and I am feeling better . I am just feeling exhausted by dealing with lot of people. Everybody has a say in everything. They dont even spare my 6 year old daughter.

    June 5, 2024 at 4:52 pm in reply to: Passing clouds #433523
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    Sometimes it makes me feel like i shouldnt have married.I am glad that we are in usa where i gave the freedom to wear what i want to,be the way in want to.If i would have stayed in India my marriage would have definitely resulted in divorce.I cant deal with a man who is always  worried about what his parents think.

    June 5, 2024 at 4:46 pm in reply to: Passing clouds #433522
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    My husband was sitting without even wearing a shirt but nobody tells him anything.I dont like the gender bias.The expectations of an indian laws or their family is so patriachal and so frustating.My religious  ocd got triggered when his grandmom was telling me to cover my breast.When i come back to usa it reminds of that shit and makes me feel guilty when i dress certain way and these people have no idea about it.

    June 5, 2024 at 4:42 pm in reply to: Passing clouds #433521
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    Hey Anita..We reached India safely and I started thinking already .On top of that I have I have jetlag so unable to sleep through the night.Yesterday was my kids birthday and I wanted to decorate a certain way so asked my husband for help.He then asked his father how we should do it and involved him.He did the entire decoration his way and i stayed out of it out as i dont like his involvement.I asked my husbands help to help me with my kid.He said ok but then his father was going outside and he told me he wanted to help his father and he told me take care of the kiddo.When i insisted him that i need his help he helped me to some extent and then left.On top of that his grandmother is commenting about the way i was dressesd.I wore an indian wear but she wanted me to wear a saree which i dont like.I said no.Then she insisted to wear a scarf to cover my breast.I was dressed modestly witha full length top but she still expects me dress like the way she wants to and my husband didnt say anything.She doesnt even leave me kid.She wants my kid to wear certain things.My kiddo is finding hard to adjust on top of that her constant judgements.She even commented on my certain things i did.If she was my grand mom i would have told her on her face.I kept quiet because talking back to elders is wrong in my in laws house.Its just me ranting.As usual my husband is a mans child and i hate it.I have to deal with this shit one more week.So i am just ranting.

    May 30, 2024 at 2:21 pm in reply to: Passing clouds #433323
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    I am feeling excited and nervous at the same time.

    May 30, 2024 at 10:33 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433311
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    How are you doing ?

    May 30, 2024 at 10:05 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433308
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    Thanks for the input Anita. I will try my best to follow this strategy.

    May 30, 2024 at 9:34 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433304
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    Thats so true. The hatred towards others is effecting me the most.

    May 28, 2024 at 2:04 pm in reply to: Passing clouds #433227
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    My in laws are not that rich.In india the husband and in laws are considered more than a wifes family. Hence the mother in laws feel that they have control over their daughter in laws. I dont even have the choice to wear what i want. I should not wear shorts in front of my on laws. I have to dress certain way. Some indians are still regressive when it comes to a woman when compared to usa. I am ok with clothing but i hate the fact that i have to supress my personality in front of them.

    May 28, 2024 at 11:42 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433220
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    Sorry for the rant.

    May 28, 2024 at 11:42 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433219
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    Sometimes it feels  like i have to reparent myself first when i am parenting my kid.I tell my kiddo others opinion doesnt matter and how people react is beyond your control.But its hard for me to follow.I have become so higly sensitive.

    May 28, 2024 at 11:40 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433218
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    I dont suppress myself at home. Luckily I am pretty transparent with my parents and husband. I feel safe around them.Its just when i am with my in laws and co workers or with new people.I know it takes lot of practice to come out of that shell. Yeah its tiring sometimes.

    May 28, 2024 at 10:45 am in reply to: Passing clouds #433212
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    Lol.. May be i should zone out when they something stupid.Yeah i will probably stay home during the procession.It feels like for the past few years since i started talking to more people. I am always worried about other peoples emotions/opinions as  if i am making them sad by saying no blah blah. May i have been like this for long i guess. Now i am trying to know more about myself thats when i realised i am a people pleaser.I dont talk to people when i am at work. I am always worried i would say something stupid so introverted. Its just same with my in laws. I supress myslef.

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