Sometimes it feels  like i have to reparent myself first when i am parenting my kid.I tell my kiddo others opinion doesnt matter and how people react is beyond your control.But its hard for me to follow.I have become so higly sensitive.

Lol.. May be i should zone out when they something stupid.Yeah i will probably stay home during the procession.It feels like for the past few years since i started talking to more people. I am always worried about other peoples emotions/opinions as  if i am making them sad by saying no blah blah. May i have been like this for long i guess. Now i am trying to know more about myself thats when i realised i am a people pleaser.I dont talk to people when i am at work. I am always worried i would say something stupid so introverted. Its just same with my in laws. I supress myslef.

Hi Anita.. I am good. How are you? I have been thinking about you but then I forget to message you. I have never been so happy in  a long time. We are going India next week for vacation. I was kind of nervous at first but I am so happy that I am gonna meet my parents after 5 long years especially my MOM.I also told my husband that i would be staying with my parents for most of the time so less drama. There is  just one more week left so anxiety is acting up but I am still doing good.

I didnt read the whole paragraph yet Anita. I am not in the right state of mind. My little is one literally testing our patience. She cant take a no and literally cries for every small thing then says mean things like you are bad, mean and I dont like you. It really really triggers me. I told her multiple times its ok to be sad but dont use such mean words.

Another case was diasgreements between my husband and I. I wanted to do something in a different way than he thought but still he did it in his own way that just made me angry.I get angry when things dont go my way.

Thanks for telling me the technique.Do I still do the same thing when I am angry with someone. Like talk to them later instead of that moment ?

Okay. I have been watching videos regarding anxious attachment after you posted about it on the previous thread. When i saw the videos it looks like I am anxiously attached to people because of lack of trust in me and others. Now a days I am getting angry very easily when somebody prioritizes others over me.. I am finding it heard to regulate my anger. I just shut down during communication or lash at people in my life. I dont want to hurt others because of my anger. Yeah thats a nice idea to talk about emotional regulation.