Hey Anita.. Thanks for checking. I am feeling bit better now. Its just I am frustrated with my job. Like I said before I am not satisfied with my job. I did tell my manager about taking new challenges. He promised me that new project will start soon and that will be challenging. But when I came back form vacation everything has changed. My manager will be still working on the existing project and i will be left with little amount of work. That just made me angry. Its been two years I dont see any growth in my career. I want to try a new job. But it would be hard for me to go through the interview process again because of my social anxiety. I want to take up new job and excel in my career but I am unable to do so because of my anxiety. It just sucks.

I started feeling anxious the moment i entered home. I was always surrounded by family members  in India so its so quiet and depressing here. My brain started telling me that i felt less anxious in India and its more lonely here. So I am worried about if I should settle here or go back to India and take care of my parents. How will i survive this anxiety when i get old ? I am in my mid thirties lol. My brain started getting worried about future.

I am getting used to it. But my anxiety is acting up.

Lol. You said it right. I used to get annoyed sometimes due to lack of personal space. But you feel less lonely when you have anxiety.

I felt so safe in my home inspite of my ocd getting triggered during certain times.

Hey Anita.. I am back to US. I feel so homesick right now. How are you doing ?

Hey Anita! How are you doing ?

I always felt less anxious at my mothers place but now i dont have the peace of mind.