Hi Anita,

Thanks for your reply.

Well, the salaries there are higher, plus it’s much easier for me to get a job there than anywhere else as that’s where my experience lies. That’s why I’ve been toying with the idea for a few months now. It will be a lot easier to hit the ground running, plus I already have a prospective job lined up as we speak.

As for feeling excitement for potentially seeing him – to the contrary. I sincerely wish he weren’t there and this isn’t a subconscious move on my behalf to hopefully bump into him. The mere thought of seeing him is what concerns me. I’d rather never see his face again. And it’s not because I’m concerned about any potential consequences. There’s really nothing left for us to say to each other at this point. All I ever wanted was the truth from him and he couldn’t even give that to me, so that’s that.

I know that married men, especially unhappy ones who feel ‘trapped’ may resort to affairs. But I have zero desire to get into such a situation with him. I’ve grown immeasurably over the last 12 months and during this growth my self-worth has also soared. I deserve an unattached, emotionally healthy man who can give me everything I deserve – love, affection, loyalty. My ex is in a hell of his own making and I don’t feel any sympathy for him anymore. I feel sympathy for myself for having been through this and trust me, I have no desire to set my recovery back and enter into a situation that will erode my self esteem and stop me from meeting someone available.