about the college essay, i have been drafting it a few sentences at a time, just letting the natural flow of words flow out of my heart like i do with my poetry. i have decided to do the essay called “How the Blog Changed my Life” and i have added a few details on paper. the few sentences that i have posted are on page 37 on August 19, 2016 at 9:53 am. i have senior year and also 2 years at a community college that doesn’t require an essay, but rutgers does and looking up the essay topics, they are pretty straightforward. i think my essay would fall under “What is the hardest part of being a teenager now? What’s the best part? What advice would you give a younger sibling or friend (assuming they would listen to you)?”
or “Tell a story from your life, describing an experience that either demonstrates your character or helped to shape it.” or

• Describe a time you made a meaningful contribution to others in which the greater good was your focus. Discuss the challenges and rewards of making your contribution.

i agree that the brain develops and learns from childhood experiences and having a different lifestyle would change one’s personality, maybe that will also be part of my essay. that who i am not only has been shaped by the words i write here, but also by my parents. i’m finding that i have a lot of good ideas for the essay especially since it talks about finding my self-identity. i believe that when we die, we become reborn as a new person b/c we leave behind our physical selves and the things that we’ve learned. although, there has been evidence that young children have a higher creative ability than adults since it is easier to start art as a child, than an adult since the child is more imaginative. also in my ap biology book, it says that a one week child may have a hind brain, fore brain and back brain. at 3 months, the child develops a cerebellum (allowing some crawling) and the brain slowly develops and different parts such as right hemisphere and left hemisphere develop in one year. children 10 and younger have neuroplasticity with their brains (Ben Carson discovered this) b/c the removal of one hemisphere (possibly due to seizure) is okay for the child since their other side takes over the functions of the missing half and they have the same cognitive ability. humans are truly complex and amazing creatures. it takes around 500 bee stings to kill a child, but 1500 to kill an adult. even though, adults have stronger immunity, children have better plasticity of their muscles and cells.

i wrote the short poems in 2013 when i was in seventh grade b/c there were times when i felt sad and lonely, but the times when i felt happy, i wrote the poems so when i was sad, i would read them and be inspired. i think this is a cool coincidence i woke up at 4:03 this morning and i turned on the radio and this song was playing called “If you Only Knew” by Shinedown. anyway the lyrics were “‘Cause it’s 4:03 and i can’t sleep without you next to me, I toss and turn like the sea.” i thought it was pretty cool, anyway at 4:03 pm, while i was writing a poem i heard a song on the radio that reminded me of the poem i was writing called ’embracing the light’ which is about embracing myself for who i truly am and letting the divine into my life. the song is called “Chasing Cars” by Snowy Patrol. and the part of the lyrics were “all that i am, all that i ever was is here is your perfect eyes. your all i can see. i don’t know where, confused about how as well. know that these things will never change for us at all.” i like this part of the lyrics b/c it’s about embracing life for its beauty even if you feel insecure b/c life is too short and also being confused or worried doesn’t make a situation better so you should just accept it as it is. also at 4:03 the full moon was quite bright in its light and at 6:20, i watched the moon become a small disc in the sky and disappear with the dawn breaking. i went out for a run at 6:20 this morning and when it was 6:26, the sun rose and the brilliant light shone upon the trees and the wind blowing, it was great. drinking in the sun’s rays as it began to illuminate the sky just as i was making my way home and when i was home, the sun had fully risen. i have a goal of being a molecular biologist at princeton university.