If you’re not letting them flow now, what are you doing to prevent that?

Generally its not healthy to bottle things up if that’s what you’re doing. In any case you’ll eventually need to feel them without letting them take you down. You’ll need to let them flow and know that they are just feelings and don’t have to control you. Its like having a cold where you have to wait it out. You have to realize that this is Abraham having feelings and its normal and ok and they won’t last forever even if it feels like it.

Maybe as a test once you feel ready you can allow yourself to feel these feelings for 5 mins. Set a timer and when the 5 mins are up decide that you are going to do something happy and healthy to take your mind off your feelings. Do this until you feel strong enough to go longer and then start incorporating some thoughts about how you’re just sitting with these feelings and while they feel bad, nothing has to happen and eventually they’ll leave.