Allicia, your feelings are most definitely valid, and you are not crazy. Your feelings, your needs, your desires – everything about you deserves to be taken seriously. I’m incredibly sad to hear you’ve been doing a course that makes you feel so deeply unhappy. You deserve to be doing what you enjoy, and following the life YOU want to lead.
But it’s also made me happy, seeing your last sentence – you’ve said you are ready, and you sound ready. You’ve said, “maybe I can have that grace and forgiveness for myself to just move on right now. And to validate my feelings and take them seriously.”
It sounds like you are already starting to take your feelings seriously, even if it’s just a little.
It’s much easier in a fantasy world, isn’t it? 🙂 I have a habit of falling into fantasy too. At first I thought it was a coping method to help me deal with the sad feelings, but now it’s helping me put off facing the reality that’s so scary. I don’t know if you can relate to that at all?
It is scary, but can also be wonderful, and everything in between. I think it’s just about having some faith in yourself, that you’ll be able to cope with everything that comes your way.
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