Hi Allicia,

I’m sorry to hear you are feeling bad. Do you want to share a bit more about what you are doing and how your family reacted to your decision?

I think that the anxiety is coming from your fear of listening to your own voice after listening to your father’s voice for so long.
You are asking if it’s your intuition, but I believe it’s the part of you that is still very scared of going against your father’s will. I believe it is probably a combination of two fears: one, that your father will be angry and disappointed with you. Two, that whatever he told you will happen as a result of not doing what he says, all these bad scary things, will happen.

I think that when we are experiencing anxiety and panic attacks we are not really thinking or listening to our real intuition, or inner voice. We are in survival mode and are only looking for the safest course of action, and this is what you are feeling right now. But the course of action that we interpret as being safest for us isn’t necessarily so, and is not always what’s best for us or what we even really want. Does that make sense?