Today I have realised that I was never really a Christian. I am not a true Christian. This is because I no longer feel connected to the hateful Christian God, who really detests everything He has made. Who is cruel and vindictive. Who made homosexuality possible but who hates gays. Whose followers label themselves Christian yet so often use extremely ugly language when they come across opinions that differ from theirs, and who use Bible passages like weapons to back up their ugly language.

What do I do now? I have had a spiritual experience and all my old beliefs have vanished. I can’t pray anymore and I am completely lost.

Tannhauser.