But I don’t believe in God anymore. You might feel Him/Her/It, I don’t. My entire belief system has collapsed. I am empty inside. I feel nothing, except for occasional feelings of deep sadness which well up inside me. I don’t mind these feelings of sadness, for at least I am feeling something when they happen. Perhaps a lot of it has to do with my medical condition (I have hypopituitarism). When I think of God, I only view Him/Her/It as a punishing figure who has sought to punish my past-life misdeeds by blighting me with chronic illness and infertility.
I don’t think I am going to make it very far into 2017. I can’t live like this.
Tannhauser
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