I’m not obsessively or unhealthily reading books dong courses etc, I am doing it in a healthy way as I always find something new and it is something I enjoy hence why my career is taking me in that direction, but I think what you said about “I’m already powerful and complete, and this is just an occasional flux.” is something I need to remember – would just hate to waste another 10 years in relationships that get me nowhere – however I wouldn’t change those relationships or those experiences, but I guess I am being silly worrying about the future.