Hello,

I’m sorry you are feeling this way. I can appreciate it is hard to see the light sometimes, but it’s still there.

in terms of your job, I believe things happen when they are supposed to happen and it could be that job wasn’t 100% right for you, or you can see not getting the job this time as a lesson in persverence and determination. You just need one lucky break with your job, so perhaps just keep trying for things you are interested in and perhaps find some volunteer or charity work on the side so you can perhaps make more friends or meet new people and have something else to talk about in your job interview. Sometimes you just need one thing to go right then everything else falls into place. perhaps think about a new skill, qyalifcation or hobby you would like to try-this could give you a boost of confidence and allow you to meet new people. There is a website called meet up that can help you meet people in your area and charities often run cheap working holidays where you get out in the outdoors with a group of people and work toward a common goal eg clearing a coastal path etc that again may just give hoy done positive feelings back.

I have been I a similar position to you and can empathise with your situation. In my experience it was following my heart to do what I enjoyed, and making small changes to my life that over time added up.