Hello Anita,

Happy Friday.  It has been a very trying week on my end.  Not in regards to my parents, more in regards to my job in patient care.  Regardless, I was reminded, as above, how difficult just the baseline of life can be, to choose right instead of left.  To choose to be calm instead of angry, to eat well instead of indulge, to go to the gym versus the couch.  We are faced with a myriad of small decisions every day in so many moments, and the accumulation of whether they are right or left, positive or not as positive, does accumulate over time.

I have thought about how it is frustrating at times to feel like this, and how it can be isolating. My husband and I understand one another, similar job stress, as well as personal stress from parents issue.  However, the world could never imagine! I remind myself that is okay: I go back to my previous quote:

sometimes individuals feel the need to be heard loud and clear, when they do not hear their own self loud and clear.

I find I dealt with this over the week.  I found myself feeling frustrated when an individual didn’t “get me” and I see now it is not her job to get me, and also an unreasonable expectation on my end.

Perhaps I was not tuning in enough and listening to what I was dealing with.

I am dealing with some burnout on many levels, and I do look forward to some down time this weekend to recharge.  It has helped tremendously that I no longer put a large social burden on myself.  This allows more time for self preservation.  However, sometimes no matter how much space you create in your life, it can be difficult to recharge and wind down.  It as these times where it is important to tune in before burn out reaches a severe state.  I hope to tune in today.