Hey, i find myself feeling better little by little, it worries me that every time i wake up i still think of them and the feeling of anxiety kicks in but its easier to go back to being calm, I’ve been writing like I told you and it has make me feel better. I’m still feeling scared of how I’m going to feel when  he finds someone new, sadly my best friend and him are roommates and knowing  that she knows when he brings someone home or knowing when he finds someone new it’s kind of scary and makes me feel damn anxious, she told me that if wanted she would tell me when he finds someone new but I don’t know if that’s a good idea or not. Right now I know I’m just feeling calm because I’m numb, I laugh but I just half feel it, its calm but I can’t enjoy things, so when he gets someone new I’m scared to go back to step 1. I keep reading the forums on “how to get over a break up” and maybe that’s bad too? I think I’m kind of obsessing about feeling better? I don’t know.