Now i’m in this weird state where I’m like numb, I don’t get excited but I don’t get too sad, when am I going to stop thinking about him completely? I’m planning a trip abroad to feel excited again but what if I stay numb for a long time? right now I know that I can feel sad or just numb, I don’t get what’s the state that I’m at right now, am I getting over him or am I just stuck? right now I’m just living day by day, I feel like my dreams and desires are gone or hidden somewhere and I can’t  find them. My plans were to live in the same city with him, not because he was there but because I love the city, but now I don’t even feel like waiting for the day I can live there because my dream of having a relationship with him in the city I love is gone, I know my normal self would still be excited to move to that city but I just don’t feel it right now and it bothers me, I wanted to live there even before I met him so why am I feeling so disheartened?