Lately I’m the one who intiates texting. However she did last weekend. When we first started texting she did a lot more.

Yes she is seeing her bf exclusively. However he is living in another state for two years and she said that’s it not like a real relationship.

She also had told me that that she was sorry that she couldn’t make me happy.   I told her that she she did. And that I caused my own unhapppiness.

I think you are right about slowing down. If I do come across to strong she could see that as needy or clingy and demanding and scare her off.

Really sucks though. Feels like I have to play this messed up game just to see if there is a chance. And how long do I do this for?

She did wish me a happy birthday last month. So I will text her on her birthday and do the same. But besides that I will stop texting and let her initiate it.  It then if I do that and she doesn’t text then what?  Would that be because she is having feelings and is scared and it’s easier to forget or would it be because she doesn’t want anything more than friends?  OMG. This is so hard.