Dear Anita,

enduring = healing

I thought about this since your last post.  I observed how it felt.  I am currently recovering from a flu-like illness, and interesting how illness can really affect the mind, the feeling of doom and dread.  Especially for someone prone to emotional instability, a period of sickness can definitely take me to a lower mental state.

So I would think, enduring = healing.  Yes, I am glad to feel. and finally make some progress

Then later in the day I would think, but will I really feel? I have trapped the feelings In so long, who is to stay they will “come out.” Will I just be sitting, suffering,waiting for them to?

Perhaps I don’t truly believe my feelings can “release.” The suppressed emotions can come out.  The trauma can surface.  Any of the terms.  I don’t think I truly believe it can happen.