Dear Anita,

I hope this message finds you well.

I think I am so keen to see the good in people – almost as if I can’t not see it, if that makes sense. Hence how I saw the good in Clarence, and saw the good in Toby. I see it, and they themselves show me that they’re sensitive, deep etc. Although Clarence ISNT – he’s misogynistic, sexist and just awful to women :'( I don’t know what it is about me, it’s like I am unable to believe that people can be anything other than genuine or honest. :'( :'( My mind just doesn’t understand how some people are liars, or why some people play games and hurt people etc.

Regarding the parents stuff, I agree. I think that is why sometimes I feel so alone, despite being surrounded by housemates. I feel like I am living on my own isolated planet, where no one can see me and no one understands me.

Lots of emotions and thoughts right now – confused, sad, confused, stupid, lonely, confused.

Cat