Dear Anita,

I hope this message finds you well.

Things have calmed down a lot from the Toby situation. Things continue to change with me, my life, my values, attitudes, beliefs etc. Have been for the past two months, as think I am finding a sense of grounding in myself.

Not sure if I mentioned, but when I was 20/21 I sought salvation at a multi-faith ashram Skanda Vale in Camarthen, Wales. You can stay there for free, as long as you volunteer for 3 hours a day – polishing brass/ gardening etc. Indian families go there from all across the world. There are 6 pujas a day, starting at 5 in the morning until around 8pm. It’s multi-faith, primarily Hindu and Buddhist, but there is a Christian service on Sunday.

It was there that I met my friend I was telling you about before. British Indian woman.We both went alone, and it’s rare for single women to go there alone. We bonded well, and we would stay up every night drinking tea and talking about life together. She came to my graduation 🙂 🙂

Anyway, at the end of each puja – they play ‘Om Namah Shivaya’ by Krishna Das. It’s 11 minutes and I love it. I have been playing it more recently, and I played it the other day, prayed and released on my worries, then I played guitar and started growing in confidence and loving it. It was the best time I’d played guitar because I allowed myself to enjoy it – it made a world of difference.

I am starting to pray more, and I would like to learn Sanskrit.

There’s more going on with me, but will tell you in future message/ discuss in future message.

Also, I’ve been meaning to ask for ages now – I’ve noticed that when you write a message, you always Capitalise the first letter of everyone else’s name, but you don’t use capitals for your own name, it’s always ‘anita’ – is there any reason for this??

Cat