Jazz thank you Soo much for sharing this. I was literally crying while reading your post. I am going  through the exact same thing. I know how you must have felt while you are with the BEST MAN in the world who is loving you with everything but you can’t do the same. I pray God takes us out of these things, make our thinkings clear and fill us with the feeling of love. Not the honeymoon love but the everlasting love so that we can be together with these man in health and sickness and face life but still be in comfort in our mind. Amen