You should not be responsible for taking care of her kids.

yes I agree and she feels the same way.  Just kind of worked out this way.  She is in that bracket where she makes too much for assistance for daycare and the hours she would need are stupid.  from 4PM until 3-4AM Sunday thru Thursday.  Her work screwed her on her schedule.  Neither of us foresaw this happening.  She is still trying to find a dayshift job so she can be at home when she can.  It breaks her heart every night she works.  She knows that I can’t do this forever too.  If nothing changes by the beginning of the year, i may have to end things.  I do know that.

You ARE still letting yourself ruminate on the things you miss about your ex, though, so that’s something you’ll want to work on, too.

I agree.  It is difficult sometimes.  I still get those damn glimmers of hope.  I do keep telling myself that that past is over.  That what we had was amazing, but it is done, she is done and has moved on with another man whom she may or may not be with for the rest of her life.  And that I need to do the same…  I  hate it that I’m such a romantic though.  I still get that feeling.” she does still love me, she just can’t do it right now” which she may, but she is done now.  I can’t sit and hope and wait.  I need to move on and do for me…