anitia, i agree.  I really think my current situation is harder for me to deal with because of her work schedule and such.  We are waiting to hear back from a career prospect for her, if that happens she will be on the same work schedule as me, freeing up more time for us and not me feeling like I’m raising her kids on my own.  I do love her.  I think that all these little things are blocking feelings and causing resentment.  So i’m going to hold out and see what happens.  If all changes and i’m still feeling this way, then we will go separate ways and i think i will try just being alone for a little while to get my shit together.  Then if/when i do start dating again.  Look for my ideal partner, not someone that i think we have some things in common so why not…