I haven’t had a chance to read Brav’s posts yet.  If anything i might print them all out so i can read whenever without using my phone or dealing with a computer.  I could even make notes to try to help me.

I do know this.  I was planning on taking my girlfriend away for a night or two to the coast for her birthday in a couple weeks.  Guess what, when i started searching for places to stay, it just triggered me big time.  All that kept entering my head was all the times that my ex and I did this.  Our first trip together was only 4 months after we met and  we stayed at a rental house for 3 nights and 4 days.  It was one of the best times of my life.  I’m doing my best to let those thoughts pass.  I’m so afraid that when i do this that instead of focusing on my me and my girlfriend that I will be thinking about all the times my ex and I did this and all the fun we had.  Man this is really hard to just let theses thoughts go.  I’m really trying though… I just needed to vent to someone. thanks