I think part of you is always going to love her, but she really is treating you unfairly and she doesn’t deserve you until she fixes her problems. I think she also needs to be the one to come to you and say flat out that she wants to work things out. Otherwise, it does just seem like some sort of game of control, which is not fair to you.

I think that’s a good game plan with your girlfriend, too. See how things go and if you still aren’t feeling it, then you aren’t feeling it, and there is nothing wrong with that. It just means she isn’t a match for you and it’ll be a good time to focus on yourself for a while. But if you and your girlfriend do break up, I probably still wouldn’t contact your ex. It would probably do you some good to have a little time off from relationships just to reset and get back to being happy with your life in general, outside of relationships.