Point 6: i have always been afraid to show people my weak side… I like being the one others can depend on….and in being that way… Now if ever i feel weak… I find others don’t have the patience to listen to me…. At first i thought they are being selfish until I realised that I made them get into the habit of being dependent on me… I should have normal healthy friendships and relationships where it’s mutual…. And I am trying being myself infront of people…. Amongst others with my closest friends… I seldom try to act all strong and mighty…also with the guy….(by the way he confessed be used to do the same thing…act all macho and the alpha male… I made him understand that he need not convince others….if he is happy inside… People will automatically see him as a strong person) and that is when I realised about me and my mistakes as well. So even with the guy, I have been 100% me till now… Not the pretentious me but the a little scared me who can be extremely brave when I have to protect someone… The me who craves for love but is also afraid of being hurt… The normal everyday girl me… Instead of hiding behind the persona I created.

I have never said these things aloud or written them down too. Hehe.. I feel good though writing it down.