Dear Anita,

I starved the devil last night.

My sister texted me – just a normal hello.

I was NOT triggered.  I responded WHEN was convenient for ME.

The devil would say, respond immediately given that its my sister – halt and act NOW.

I said nope.

Here’s why.  First of all – because I was in the middle of something, and no social text requires me to drop everything NOW.

Here’s another reason, my husband was at work until 9pm last night, he was having a miserable day at work.  Now, I can’t do anything to make his day better.  But what I can do is preserve my energy.

Energy is not infinite.  It is finite.  We are only human.  Each person and thing that punches holes into our energy sphere, allows it to seep out.  This may be without us even knowing.  But at the end of the day we may be surprised to see we only have 50% remaining.  How? How did this happen.

Scenario: I respond immediately to sister, get super engaged into her life – or anyone for that matter but especially her – and there you have it.  It is 7 pm, I haven’t stopped doing any of my own tasks.  But where is my mind? My mind is not present.  IT is not inward.  Husband arrives home at 9 pm after a 15 hour day, and where is my head? If I let my energy seep out  – throughout the day, when husband comes home – I am depleted or up in my arms – I am Cali Chica from a few weeks ago after yoga. ready to fight, ready to attack.  Depleted and angry – angry for being depleted – and then roar fire out – stay away!

So anyway, protect thyself, so you can be your best self to you, and to others.