we celebrated the day we physically met. 

The feelings lasted quite a while. I do t think they started to fade until well after she moved in. In fact things were going good up until my ex contacted me the last time. That really put me a step backwards. Just things she said. Like telling me she thought of me often. It really confused me and made me think about what I was feeling.

I agree. The sooner I can do this the better. I don’t want to put pressure on my girlfriend right now though. I would rather her be working a full time job that she could afford her bills at least.

I know it takes two and her being in this position is choices that she made but I still feel responsible. Last night she told me that she can’t wait until I feel butterflies when she texts me or calls me. I felt really bad when she said that. God I feel like a prick. I hate that I put myself in this position. And her.