I don’t think I’m going to leave a note.  After I read back what I wrote my impression was basically I got upset bc I didn’t get what I wanted.  Maybe that’s true.  At the time I didn’t know what I wanted and just felt constant anxiety.  One thing that did not come across in my forum was that he could be disrespectful/indifferent to me and my feelings.  I told him once I wanted him to be there for me at times when I needed advice or help and he told me to stop being dramatic.  His wording was very harsh.  I don’t like who i was with him.  I was desperate and confused and worried and unstable.  I have developed this issue with everyone leaving me lately.  It’s hard to drop my kids off anywhere,I worry about my parents health, I worry friends are mad at me and might not talk to me anymore for some crazy reason.  I felt like I could not let him go and he was going to have to end it no matter how rude he acted.  I’m still embarrassed and ashamed by my behaviors.  I worry when he sees me he wants to run the other way.   Thank you for your honest insights.

Lindsey